connecting*the*dots

i remember the day i saw you for the first time
how you danced with the wind
swayed as a matter of fact
i knew in that instant my heart was jacked
stolen.
lost forever
caught in the breeze you controlled with ease.
why try to fight what you can’t control?
so i gave in to my desires
and i gave in to the moment
i was weak
i was in need of closure
trying to wrap it up in a ball
and toss it to the curb
to lose the jones for her touch once again
i needed to move on
one thing i knew for sure
is that i needed closure
then you started to sway in the midst of my gust
i must have been crazy to let on the need i had for you
how did i let myself fall?
why couldn’t i deal with my shit first before involving someone like you?
a sweet soul, tender to the touch
good to the core…
i tried to ring you in
i tried to have it all
you and all of my insecurities abound…
i knew better
but became intoxicated by your touch
your smell
your being
and now that i have buried my past with her
you are no more
but a moment of bliss
is better than a lifetime of remiss
so i’ll take the tryst
with blood clenched fists
i’ll move on and resist
the thought of your kiss